#59 | Bad Injuries | Can you believe they managed to sew it back on?

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I was listening to Radiohead before we started this pod wreck. Oh yeah, I just remembered something that really irritated me way back when was that? Like, Radiohead were like considered to be like a German band? Which was a bit confused about when I was like, yeah, I'm in band. I know, I don't know my like I've fully embraced my gaming lifestyle so I'm not bothered by it, but I'm just confused because I would consider them to be kind of lefties if anything.

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No, I think it was lefties. It was more the, not the lefty snowflake pissy pants boys that lost the Radiohead. Yeah, yeah, you're already saying that because that's what that's what Noel Gallagher thinks of Radiohead. No, no, not at all. No, not at all. But that sounds like an attack on me. You're saying I'm a lefty? Piss your pants.

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No, no no, no. But, like, back then. Yeah, you had the. You have the rock and roll boys, the, Oasis, the drugs guys. But then anything out of that was a bit of, I don't know, it was a bit kind of bit different. And I think because they were they, you know, they were, then they come from, like, the university lads.

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Yeah, probably. I think Oxford always thinks of private education for sure. Yeah. That's so, so they it was very, easy to attack them. It was easy to kind of categorize them and, and the way they played music, obviously it was, rock music, but they liked to experiment, and it was like the weird kind of like, different sounds you could hear on the records that people like out on.

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That's like, you going too far. It's all sounds to indicate, and I'm going to play the record backwards and upside down and, oh, this is so good. This is what I was there. Yeah. I think that's the that was sort of what some of the criticism was when it was like, they were a guitar band, like Pablo Honey is not a good album, but, Ben's is a guitar album.

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It's an indie guitar album. Quite heavy. Yeah. And then there were elements of okay computer that were quite guitar and heavy and indie based. Oh yeah. Loads. Yeah, yeah. But you could see the direction they were kind of moving in with. Okay computer. It was almost like, I know that's considered to be like their best album, but for me it's almost like a, that's a bridge, an album towards what they actually wanted to do.

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Guitar in my opinion, is like, it used for me in Rainbows used to be the best album or their best album. I loved it, and I still do because it reminds me of 2007 2008. Yeah, pilled to my gills. You know, I adored that album, saw them play it 4 or 5 times. But musically, if you look at their entire catalog, for me today is number one.

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Now, now. So if a kid I need to finish to for them to make it a after. Okay. Computer, have you ever seen the documentary? Meeting people is easy. No I haven't. I mean, you're still poorly, right? Well, this afternoon off the Spurs get battered by a bit and you treat yourself to, an hour on your own, like, tell the missus to make the fucking tea because you need an hour on your own.

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Yeah. Or not that or something else that isn't sort of misogynistic, right. And just watch that. And it's about essentially it's it's following Radiohead tour. Okay. Computer. But really what it's about is them trying to cope with the success of the album and the anxiety that comes with writing the next. That's what that that documentaries about, and it's a series of interviews with mainly Thom Yorke, but they're following them around by the tour and and it's great.

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It's so good when, when, when we released that documentary because again, calling back to your, 1998. Right. Okay. That's that's that's this sounds relevant then. Yeah. So there's a, there's a clip of Noel Gallagher where he's saying about rock and roll stars that complain that he said he even he was in the back of the limo, or he was watching Thom Yorke in the back of the limo complaining about being a celebrity.

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The success, the pressure's, the anxiety. And he's like, well, just don't fucking do it. Then leave it to me. Leave it to what? You actually want to do it. You know, we're the guys here. If you complain so much that you don't like this lifestyle, fuck off. Yeah, because it's pretty good. And you capture those moments and it's like you hit an echo button through time.

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And I'm still seeing it on social media now, and that's why people will probably cast that. There's aspersions at Radiohead that they were not Gaman Band, but a bit more of, irritating sister sissy bands. Yeah. Well, I mean, the goes on that anxiety and I guess that pressure that you put on himself goes on to write the best album they've ever written, I think.

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So it's the events out your what? Your process is. But I do remember that I do remember that criticism of of the like blink. I think it was no Gallagher or something like that Blinky music or something like that, making like, all the sounds of. I can't remember what you said exactly, but it was a slacked off.

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A lot of people. Yeah, a lot, a lot of people. Fair play. It's not really. Yeah. You know, I think it's so weird because we're we're all a little bit I mean, we, we were a little bit he gets us that age group come a little bit. But you know it's all started to make sense. And she talks about sex but not somebody.

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I when we, when we used to knock about in London, you was you and, your exit time would always warm up about now he's a Tory. Is this is that and the stuff? How can it be Tory? But then, like, looking back now and looking back to him at his present state, it's that he was a massive Tory.

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They it can't be it. I don't think he can be that rich and not be it. And he gets on the stage like most people that vote labor. Yeah. And I get it as well. Working class background with it grafted stereotypically that grafting and then money's tight right. And have to look at all of it. And a labor government stereotypically would look after those people.

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Right. Invest in the health service. They would fund social care. They would put money into youth projects. Youth services were Tories are like, yeah, that's all nice and well and good, but it's not going to make the economy strong. So let's do this and don't worry about, you know, we're going to reduce interest rates. We're going to you know we're not going to lower stamp duty for first time buyers like I did.

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Yeah. Like labor did to me. Come to April 1st the complete of what, seven grand labor want to say? Not until April 1st. You've got. Yeah, yeah, that's your labor government, Rick. That's what you voted for, right? Did you vote for him? What? Labor? Yeah. Yesterday. Yeah. Well. Thank you. It cost me 7,000 pounds, you know. Well, I've cost you a lot more over the years, I reckon.

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I'm happy I would. I was happy to do that.

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The night hazy light Band of brothers playing Jones high as quite midnight waves. Surfing through till daylight breaks rhythm. Here's different ways. Love of music that we prayed with our tongues in cheek. Band as I we like to speak. And yeah, times change. But no matter what the bond remains. Brothers.

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Hello and welcome to lands Anonymous is episode 59. I'm Ricky, he's five two best mates. One main topic we answer your life dilemmas and confessions in our feature something only you know. And everything remains anonymous. Always. So sit back, relax and enjoy the pot. How is it going? Five my beard needs a trim badly. My, my, everything about me is just.

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Yeah, nails. Bed. Pollyanna Dick yeah I honestly I yeah, yeah. Oh my. Oh it's terrible down there. What do you mean? I just it just needs a trim trim back. Grow quickly. Your bush. Now what do you say trim badges. What about scissors? Are you talking about. Like you're going to buzz it, but it does it. How did you do the post?

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I, I kind of angled it so that that I hold it away enough that there isn't, like, the teeth on that close to the cube and pull the pull that way and go through the hair. Oh, yeah, I'd like to. Yeah, I'll do that first of all. Yeah. And then I put a guard on and then after that a try and raise your up a bit as well.

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Right side. Yeah. Yeah. Yes I smooth smartphones. How smooth can they be. What you ever thought about. Imagine them. Yeah I have years ago your brother told me he used. How was it like it was like iMac. Yeah. And you remember what, brother? Because I, I've got a my because you. Same younger brother. Yeah, well, there's two of them.

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Three of them.

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Whoa. You got three younger. Right. Sorry, sorry, sorry. No, you can't say his name if it's the one. You know, it's my mum's brother is Ali. Yeah, yeah yeah yeah, yeah, yeah. No, another one did it as well. You wouldn't listening to this. You wouldn't need suspects. Men take as much. Think about their balls as much as they do.

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And we'll go to the lamps in order to me. No hair on there. So what is it the women want to. Little bald nuts smashing away. Is that what people say? Little McNuggets? Yeah. Just to little slapping look like newborn? Yes.

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Is that you know, if there's any women listening to this, what is it? Is it ideally, what do you want when you confronted with a dick? Is it all off? Is it trimmed? Do you mind it? Do you want a bush? Because we always think about, oh, what do you want lady, to look like down there? Well, yeah.

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What are women one. Yeah. What the. Yeah. That I would be that's a bloody good question because you'd think if I don't know, there wouldn't be like, a general like, oh, we as a women want shaved men because I think sometimes like, people like, I like a big bear gruffly hairy. We've got a friend called John.

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And these, the various man I've ever meet. Like, if he doesn't tend to his hair. Yes. Like he's got a bodysuit on top of his already massive body. So he's got like, body and then buffer, which is hair, and he's like six foot three. He probably weighs. Yeah. Well I guess he's weight. He's got away over 20 stone just because the size of him I, I yeah me yeah definitely.

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Ready mate. When when I went for my before I've kicked everything on the on the head before white Christmas when I went for my pre-op examination I was 16 stone. You were 1616 stone, 100kg, which is what I mean. I'm overweight. Don't get me wrong, I've lost a bit because by a pair of jeans that didn't fit me now fit me, which is fucking.

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And you won't ask it. It's not. That's a home win for me. Yeah. That is. Yeah. Can't not go out, do loads of gear and drink, but I've got a pair of jeans that fit me. So, the things around that, things around I think I'll take you into when you get them. Yeah, but John Boy is like, he's got to be over 20 stone 100%.

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And I let me text him because I'm going to go for. So if you're 16 and John is taller and he's just a naturally big guy and people that don't haven't seen John, I know you saw me. Posey's feature on on, Twitter all the time, but I don't know if you seen him. Full body. He's not. He carries the right size.

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He's perfectly proportioned. He's supposed to be that way. So that way. But, But, yeah, just he just carries. He carries. Well, how much you weigh? Do you. I'm going to say 18. Right. I'm going to say 18. And do you know what? It wouldn't surprise me if it was like a red card. Yeah. Honestly. And I say, I am, I just, I want to, speak about my illness.

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Not in any, like, fucking great thing. But last Sunday, last Saturday, I did the food shop. When I got home after the food shop, stayed in a bit, I was like, I just don't feel that great, you know? And I did. Yeah, I just think, oh God, something's not right. And it's sort of, it's sort of in your frontal lobe, but it's also, yeah, in your chest as well.

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In it. I felt like, my skin was really sensitive. Guess that's what I know. That's when I know. Yeah. The hot and culture was a comment. I know that that. So Sunday Monday Tuesday Wednesday, Thursday, Friday I was a fucking write off literally bedridden chart and then getting downstairs onto the sofa taking all my like, my duvet and all that light.

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And I was in a place of wearing everything I possibly own. And still my teeth were chattering because I was so cold to sweating and being soaking wet. Sore throat. My shoulders and neck were aching. My left ear was not. It was. It was muffled because my eardrum was swollen or something. It was just a fucking mess.

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And then after the first I think this is Thursday, but Mrs.. Like, you've been like this for like 4 or 5 days. This isn't normal. You need to go to the doctors. And I was for fuck's sake. So she made me a doctor's appointment, drove me to the doctors, and I have a viral fright infection. And like I, I it was more than likely.

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I can see your faces. It. So you had a sucking dick? Yeah. It was. Yeah. Sucking nice dick. Unclean Dick is, toilet. The toilet, the musky, musky cock. Like I never understood why. There's this. Does this section, like, It only doesn't happen in straight in in the straight section of society because women would never do it.

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But when it comes to men, because we're dirty little buggers will happily go to the toilet and suck each other off. Yeah. Easy. Like it's interesting. Women, they say nothing. Not. They don't have any. You know. Why is a glory hole synonymously about men? Because only a man would do that. Only a man would. Would put his like.

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There's something about as pretty wide that sex comes before anything else. Yeah. And if it means a public toilet, then it means a public toilet. Whereas women are like, I doing that with men of like I'm doing it. And and if it means a man's mouth, then it means a man's mouth. It doesn't matter. And exactly. And the thing is, Ricky's this isn't a homophobic statement.

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It's just a fact. Yeah, that is two men. That's double as double. Yeah. Yeah, right. A man and a woman. That's just one side. Two men double. It just happens to be a gay thing. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Right. But the point is, is men are preprogramed, you know, don't worry. I won't mind a bit of toilet dick if that's what I can get tonight.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So that's what I'm saying. And that's why if you did get it from toilet Dick, we understand. That's exactly, exactly how I did get it. So.

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It was the Liverpool game. No it nice little toilet. Oh yeah. It was after the Liverpool game. Yeah it was that. Do you remember the opening that pub. Yeah. Yeah yeah. It were toilets and left hand side. Yeah yeah yeah yeah. Every time you went and numbers all over the world. Yeah yeah yeah yeah Johnny Dixon women don't notice.

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You go into men's toilets. It's. You can't offered it all the time. Yeah, well, I could go into any man's toilet, dial a number off the off the toilet wall, because that's been 20 minutes. Yeah. That's good. I mean, it's it's a service that way that you need it today anyway. No one's getting up at work, Ricky.

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Yeah. So I, as you can tell, I've been fucking floored. So we have not been posting on social. We have not been answering any emails. We've not been answering any DM's. I've not been active on my personal social media. I've just forgotten that I've. I've just didn't even know I existed. So good time. If it was good.

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Yeah. That felt no, it you know what there was, there was parts of like in my mind, I'm, I'm losing. I'm getting behind in work. I'm losing days where I should be posting. I should be doing this. I should be moving forward with that. And then there were parts of me it's like I'm just in a feverish dream watching Sopranos over and over again.

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You got a joke at the end. So you just telling us how it was? No, no, just telling us how I. But I'm just. But no, just telling everyone that there's been loads DMs and loads of emails. I haven't replied to any over it. Rick. There is no quickie with Ricky and I did okay over people. Rick paper me about it.

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I haven't replied, I haven't replied to an email in about seven years I know, right? Listen to me Ricky. There's more important things to discuss here, right? Okay. And the most important thing is, if I was the wife of it when you.

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She was terrible. But what is it? I don't why are we not allowed to be ill? I'm 25 years in and I'm not. I have made a choice. I really have not. Why? She could see how it I was. I literally through the phone when I was talking to you, crawling across the land and using my fingertips to get down the stairs.

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It's just like walking over me just to get downstairs quicker. It's like a lot, right, Rick? Do you know what I did? Because I wasn't sure. Because I'm not here. I'm not miles away from you. I can take care of you. Yeah, I know, well, so I had to make sure that the wife was looking after you, so I texted.

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I said, listen, are you looking after Ricky? And she was, you know, a response was, rubbish of all that. That is not. That's not odd. I see you take an empty. He's had a couple of cup of tea. Yeah, my business is the same. She's like, just get on with it. We've got work to do. The house doesn't stop running.

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There are children that needs to be fed. Yeah, yeah, I know, almost just my brow. It's just you just say, oh, you're right. Do you need to tuck me in time in, put a film on the telly for me? Just sit with me for five minutes. Don't even need to say anything. Just that your presence is there with me.

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Yeah. And it's like. And I can do it. Like, you sit there for a minute. I could feel it twitching, ready to get away, ready to do something else. I hope. You know, I think it is. I think it might be a deep thing, Rick. I think it might be like women are preprogramed to recoil from an injured man.

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Because. What is an injured man? So, yeah, if nothing, we are nothing if we can't provide so. And I'm not mean, they mean it on a conscious level. I think they're preprogramed in their deep rooted into their DNA to actually recoil from an injured man who can't do anything. He can't go and provide for the fact of the family back then, but bring the meat home for the tribe that you might be on something.

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Because I don't know what. I don't know what the fuck I was watching. I was watching a video on Instagram and a woman who was with her fella, she got a bit punchy. Someone stepped to her. Her fella then said, oh, hey, this is my woman, you better fuck off. And then he got folded up and then I and then, then if you went back to her and she left him because watching her fat I get beat up, gave her the kick and I was like, whoa, you know, the injured husband, the injured partner, you know, the weak partner being ill or beaten up and women don't want to.

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That is exactly so. It's not like they don't care. I think there's an inbuilt. That's right. Yeah. Thing I so I so there was there's another level to that story. You just mentioned Eric in terms of she just seen her partner get beat up by that man. And then when she was freaking herself off, you thinking about the bloke who beat up her husband?

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Yeah. Assets and the, the fact that we know about that person, Rick. And we don't know any personal level. Yeah, just on the internet. Her boyfriend definitely knows. That's a tough one to come back from. Yeah, but how you recover from that, he's never going to recover from that, ever. Should we. Oh. Gone. That's what I was going to jump into.

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Today's topic of, bad injuries. Now, we've had, a fair few. We've got a voice over, actually. We, Yeah, yeah, I emailed it to you yesterday whilst, you're having a look at that, but yeah, we had, we've had quite a few people say now, can you talk about bad injury? Can you talk about being hospitalized?

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Can you talk about, you know, something of the same ilk? Have you had any like proper bad injuries? And I mean, when what I'm talking about bad injuries, it couldn't be injuries that you felt were bad. It doesn't have to be that much. Well, you know, it doesn't have to be like my, Yeah. All in all, I don't understand.

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So I could say a sprained ankle and it won't move anybody. Right. But a sprained my ankle is one of the worst things I've ever done. It was horrendous. Exactly. Thank you. That's what I was. I was 15 years old. We were. There was this place called Harvest Estate. Right? If people know North London, they know Holloway. They'll know Harvest Estates, where it's the knock about when I was a kid.

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It's right next to where the Arsenal stadium is now. And, they had a we didn't. There was no grew up. We never played football on grass when we were kids. We only played on concrete sort of the, the, the school playground was concrete. There was no grass. There was no grass pitches, football pitches, always on concrete. And then, so in this estate they had a football pitch which was the size of five a side, but smaller like, imagine A5A side pitch, but sort of 30% smaller.

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And it was it was a big cage. It was just cage around it. And we call it the cage and we would paint. We painted four goals in it and just played the game, scored four goals so everyone would be in their respective goal. Great game right? So it means you got to defend from everyone. We can score it and go.

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We spent of hours. I decided that I was going to play football in a pair of air Max ones. Now air Max ones have a big so thick so and they have a their bubble in them. And I wasn't nowhere near the ball. I'd run on the corner the corner of the the sole, which is about an inch from where the bottom of my foot was, and my ankle turned over.

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I heard a pop, which at the time I thought was a bone breaking because I was in that much pain I was, I went white, I was sick, the pain was you were sick, was sick with the pain, right? Yeah. My within I would say two minutes. My maybe it felt like that was a long time ago. I was 15 years old.

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My ankle was like the size of size three football. It was gigantic. And, I ran with dad and I was like, dad of sprained my ankle. Can you come and get me about my ankle? Just had a drink out. Can't really come. I've had a drink, I can't drive, and I was like a fucking couple.

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You can. I mean, I, I mean, what, this just this one time, can someone. Bates had to carry me all the way back from Harvey's estate. Back to my house is water. Academy is about 20 minute journey. I went to the hospital and I'd sprained it severely, but also chipped a bone in my ankle as well, which is probably why it's swelled up, but that I've been quite lucky to have injuries.

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That was that was probably the worst. I really that that's that's been the worst. Yeah. Been well lucky. Have you ever broken anything that probably broke my wrist, but it was like a hairline fracture, so I didn't really feel like it. It felt painful, but it wasn't. In fact, what actually happened, Rick, is I do, you know, there was like, a steep hill in the woodland.

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Someone had tied a rope, a rope swing to the top of the tree which hung over this steep hill. So you would swing and you'd go out over. Then it feel like you're really high up, and then you come back down on top of the hill. I give it some a swung, and at the apex of the of the swing I slipped and fell down the hill I landed him, I landed on my wrist.

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My mum was a nurse. She left me for two days before the casualty. Really? Do you know? I didn't feel broken. It wasn't swollen. The nurses do that a lot of the time, didn't I? Because they were. I was going to like that. They've just seen a lot of it haven't I. Yeah. So they're kind of like that.

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Well but you got into it. So I've had quite a few actually. My, my, the first one obviously I don't remember this obviously, because when I was born I was, a C-section. Caesarean was you. I didn't know that. Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So, I mean, it's, it's nice to know that my face hasn't touched the inside of my mum's vagina.

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So, one of the things. Yeah, I know, yeah, I know that there's always a there's that. The biggest fear. The biggest fear of, I suppose when I thought I had a bit of an that wasn't because an injury but emotionally I emotionally that was difficult. When they cut me out my mum stump, they cut the top of my head open.

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Really? Yes. And my head was just pouring with blood and, but dad was saying to me that they were holding me, and my dad was trying to get my sister, my older sister, to kiss my younger brother, who's just been born. But, I obviously blood pressure that way had. And she didn't want to come anywhere near me.

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Luckily that I didn't have a scar. Baby very young, healed up nicely, but the next injury that I had that was pretty bad and I can vaguely remember I do have a scar up my back. So I was round my mum's friend's house, playing with their kids, bouncing up and down on a double bed, and we're all there jumping up and down.

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And someone nudged me in the back and I lost my balance and I jumped from the double bed onto the floor. But as I went onto the floor, the bedside table came with me, and the corner of that table raked right down my back and it was like, went right into my back. And obviously I was upset and crying and stuff like that.

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But my mum, when she came to inspect me, it tore and my back right open really. So, so yeah. So it's bleeding. But my mum was saying that there's like, you could see that white meat like that horrible. That's jelly stuff in my back. Well you have stitches up. We've had. Well the thing is I don't remember having stitches, but like, I must have had stitches if there was you, because you couldn't just leave a lot of festering jelly wounds, and I could she I can't I can't know how old I was.

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Young, I was young, pretty young. Maybe I'm misremembering, but I definitely remember saying it was like an open. Like she could see the bad stuff. So I've got a lotta injury. Didn't get obviously didn't get stitches. But my worst one, this is coming up to the worst one now when I was younger, my I think this my dad actually he bought me a new BMX for my birthday.

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Something like that. And as you know with BMX the handles are different. Mountain bike. So I'd normally I'd mountain bike, BMX handlebars longer. So I had to try and practice riding this bike. The balance is quite off on it and it's summer time. Everyone was playing in the street and as I was riding my BMX, my mate called me and I lost my balance and I fell sideways onto a parked lorry.

00:30:19:23 – 00:30:42:07
Now when I fell onto this part lorry, it didn't hurt. So I back my head, got back up again. I was fine, but my neighbor who lived opposite me came running over Debbie and she was checking me over saying, Ricky, you're okay. And I was like, yeah, but she was. She just kept fucking checking me over. And I was like, I said, I'm fine, Debbie, I'm fine.

00:30:42:07 – 00:31:04:15
She lifted up my right. I'm fine, chip. I'm my yeah, I'm fine. Debbie lifted up my left arm. I'm fine. And as I looked at my left hand, my finger was hanging off. Oh, and it's mad. I feel pain until you see the injury. And yeah. And after that a she had seen there was blood coming from somewhere.

00:31:04:17 – 00:31:25:18
I hadn't seen that obviously. Yeah. And then once she lifted up my hand and I saw my finger and I was like, I must have when I fell sideways, I must have got it caught on some and hadn't realized. I got back up for embarrassment because I fell off my bike. And then after that I was like, fucking dear God, what am I going to do?

00:31:25:20 – 00:31:59:10
She ran and got a tea towel, wrapped me up, knocked on my door, got my mum, sent me to hospital, all that stuff. And I was sitting there. And at that time, as a child, I was absolutely petrified of injections. I didn't want any injections at all. The doctor said to me, right, we're going to need to give you like a few injections here to sort your finger out as I now you're I he was I wish I'm sure it's, must have been maybe 910.

00:31:59:12 – 00:32:14:20
I was like, not I don't want any injections. He said, how are you going to how are we going to fix your finger? I said, just leave it. And I said, not as he's seen your finger. We can't, we can't even we have to shove it back together like we have describing this has fallen off. What is what was actually.

00:32:14:22 – 00:32:38:23
So, I can't really like, let me say fucking sideways. So my finger is completely and utterly bent. Yeah, I can see that. So. So it's my wedding finger. Yeah. And it looks and so you can't hold it straight in the end. So turn out. That's right. And this is thin. It's basically all skin here. The muscles all gone from from when it was torn.

00:32:39:04 – 00:33:00:21
The scar goes from the top and it comes all the way down and come to the bottom part of my finger here. So it's so where it was torn. It was torn, but it was connected by some sinew and tissue and bone. But it's hanging, hanging off to, to the left. So they said that they they would put it back together.

00:33:01:02 – 00:33:23:18
They sat back together, everything would be fine. And I thought, fuck that, I got I don't want any injections. In the end I had seven injections in that finger. They sewed it back together and it's this twisted, demented finger. Like a good job, though, at least until now, you wouldn't be able to tell. And it's like when it's winter.

00:33:23:20 – 00:33:45:06
It stings because I don't know why. Stings actually. Could be something to do with the, nerve endings or something. Yeah, that's that's that's been my biggest, I think my little brother Alex's issue with his finger is his thumb. Yeah. So. So you remember. So imagine the maybe, American friends might be able to remember this, but. Or imagine this.

00:33:45:06 – 00:34:11:06
But in swimming pools there would be or leisure centers, there would be big heavy metal doors that would you would you go into. You would walk through. Yeah. And they would often like fire doors and they're made of glass and metal. Well, my little brother was about two and a half, three years old. He went up to a door that was closing, and he put his finger in the hinge of that, and it slammed shut and chopped his thumb off practically.

00:34:11:08 – 00:34:33:19
Oh, God. I was about nine years old. He was two, maybe three. And he's from now is is now what you call it? It was it's you know, I call it the Devil's thumb, but it's like it's not normal was abnormal the shape of his foot. And he did the same thing when he was a kid. Just blood everywhere.

00:34:33:21 – 00:34:58:04
Luckily, the Whittington Hospital was right next to the, right next to the swimming pool. So he managed to get them straight in, but, Yeah, I've, I've never really been around a bad injury ever. Like, not even, like, seen anything bad happens. Like my mates. I've never seen bones poking out of the skin. I mean, growing up, I had a big thing about compound fractures, where the bone protrudes through the skin.

00:34:58:04 – 00:35:16:24
That was. You saw it in football. Didn't you remember that? David bust was, like, one of the worst things I've ever seen. People don't know Google David bust. You got a tackle. B players Coventry player in the Premier League and he got a tackle just to blow his knee. And on his and on his ankle at the exact same time.

00:35:16:24 – 00:35:49:00
And it broke just below knee and it broke just above the ankle in both places. Do you remember. Yeah, yeah. Oh, God. Yeah. Everyone beside us. Yeah. It was, sickening. Have you ever, like, broken your nose or. No. I know John reckons he was 16. Stone. Say, I knew, I knew it'd be a lot like a new highway 16 stone doing that.

00:35:49:02 – 00:36:12:14
So I started. You is saying fuck it now. Anyway, have you ever split your head open? My ex misses once for a plant part of me, and he hit me on the head and split it open. But it wasn't. I didn't need to go hospital or anything. Oh. Bloody hell. Plant of fucking ice. A bit on on top really went it.

00:36:12:16 – 00:36:40:00
Yeah. That's that's not, that's not cricket. I mean, we had pretty bad argument up to the point where she'd lost the mind, but I've, I've never I've never, like, hit my head and had my head split open. It's one of those ones, like a little leg break that I always wanted but didn't want. Do you know, I mean, like, I'd like to know what it feels like, but I don't actually want it.

00:36:40:02 – 00:37:12:10
Like having my leg in a cast and having crutches. People side in my cast. I'd always kind of, like, wanted that attention. Yeah, but not the broken leg or the split head, either. Have you, have you got that voice? No. Yes. Shall we, have a look? Listen. So this this gentleman is kindly sent in a voice note, and it explains that the worst injury that they've had.

00:37:12:10 – 00:37:30:18
And you can listen to that right now. So when I was 18, my cousin was getting married in a small town in the mountains in Tuscany. And from about 11 a.m. albino did flew. After the ceremony and the lunch, we all ended up further up in the mountains in a tiny village square for some more food and to start the party.

00:37:30:20 – 00:37:51:01
Quite a few more wines, a few beers and some limoncello. Later, one of the groomsmen asked me if I fancied a cheeky snout, and at that time my parents didn't know that I smoked. So we nipped up some steps to have a quick cig out of sight. As any smokers or smokers will know, you always get a bit of a Nicki rush of the first one, and after being on the booze for quite a while, I started to feel the curly words.

00:37:51:03 – 00:38:10:20
I told my boy that I was with. I'd see him down in the square and he headed off. What? I started to feel pretty grim and started to stumble about. The next bit of the story is a bit of a blur, but I remember sliding down the side of a mountain and coming to a stop about 30 or 40ft further down on the side of a road, and from that point onwards it was a complete blackout.

00:38:10:22 – 00:38:26:03
I got woken up by a random Italian man, and soon after my mum and what seemed like the rest of the village came running. Turns out I'd hit my head on the way down the slope, and I was lying in a pool of blood down a little alleyway, and everyone in the village had been looking for me for about an hour.

00:38:26:05 – 00:38:45:05
As I was coming to, they called over a doctor who was a guest at the wedding and heard my uncle and my mum were checking on me. I don't know why, but the only response I could come up with was, oh fuck off, I'm fine. I must have told them all to fuck off about 20 times, which is something I haven't been allowed to forget to this day.

00:38:45:07 – 00:39:02:10
In the end, I got whisked away in an ambulance to a hospital in a nearby city, with my mum riding with me and my dad following behind on the back of a pissed Italians moped. Turns out I'd lost about a pint of blood and six stitches in the back of my head. Later I was sent home and I was, as I'd been telling them.

00:39:02:15 – 00:39:25:13
Fine. 12 years later and it still gets brought up whenever the family's together and there's someone new who hasn't heard the story, always introduced with have you heard the story of my head in Italy? And when he told my uncle to fuck off, I've been off the sticks for a while now. Good luck with that recce, mate. Keep it up and good luck to Flav too with cutting out the booze.

00:39:25:15 – 00:39:53:08
Good. Yeah, good. I mean, I've had a head rush from a cigarette before. I've never. I can't imagine I've ever been in a situation. I'd fall down the side of a mountain because of it. I, I fuck evasive, I get the I again I've had, head rushes from I well he says he had the curly whirly started and a face was out then sliding down the fucking 40ft mount.

00:39:53:10 – 00:40:13:17
Yeah. That is, that is horrible. And I had the worst snout as well. Old school. Not that snout in a while. Now. We used to say salmon. Give us a salmon. Yeah, yeah. Salmon. Yes. Islands that I don't know where they where that came from. I guess it's some kind of like you haven't caught me. Yeah, yeah.

00:40:13:17 – 00:40:17:16
Yeah, exactly. That's how I before.

00:40:17:18 – 00:40:45:08
Sorry. What are you going to say before I cut in? Well, an interesting, Like what my observations, like, in terms about injuries and doing harm to yourself is not conventional. Like, you know, you have an injury or you hurt yourself because you've fallen over or got hit by a car or something. But it's weird where my mind state was in terms of the damage I was doing to my body when I when I was drinking enough.

00:40:45:08 – 00:40:56:04
So I'm like 25 days now without a drink. Come on. And your. Yeah, yeah, I mean it's a start but the, the

00:40:56:06 – 00:41:19:16
In my head generally I thought and I wasn't even like I wouldn't maybe I was, but I would I was like, if I get to 55 that I've done well kind of that that was what my mind state was 55 days of non drinking. Now if I, if I reach 55 years of age and I'm still alive, I've done well.

00:41:19:18 – 00:41:51:21
That's like that's you. That was your mindset. Yeah. Yeah. Like I mean yeah. My it would go through my head that I would, wouldn't live for another five years like like not because it's, it's not, it isn't saying like I'm drinking myself to death. It's not as simple as that. It's it's just a perpetually waking up as being a hangover or feeling rough or not being able to do the things you want to do and having to sit down because you're tired, you like, all that stuff gets into your head, and it's not necessarily true.

00:41:51:21 – 00:42:11:05
Or maybe it's true, but as you start to think like this is is is like, I feel terrible. And if you feel terrible for long enough, you start having these mental thoughts. Yeah. I'd like to wake up at like 4:00 in the morning and like, if I carry on like this, I'm getting this. This isn't going to be good.

00:42:11:06 – 00:42:27:23
I might not make 50 kind of thing. And I was thinking about like, I don't know if I said this on here, but, you know, I'm, I'm spending 80,000 pounds a year on booze and and cigarettes, which is fucking crazy, but it's about right.

00:42:28:00 – 00:42:54:16
And if I continue to like this, did you say eight 0 or 1 880 8000 8006 0008? Okay. So it works. So it's probably a bit more than that. So if you think like £22 a day is about 8,000 pounds a year. Fucking right. But but it wasn't 22 kids. They are now. Oh it was £22. It might on average.

00:42:54:16 – 00:43:17:20
So cigarettes are like £17 a quid. Right. I'm buying a pack of those every other day and I'm buying, you know, I'm drinking like a bottle and a half a wine, probably more in terms of like if I have some whiskey later, that's what I might. Yeah, I might do not every day but across the board in terms the amount probably equates to tidy drinking.

00:43:17:22 – 00:43:33:12
Anyway, I worked out like eight years. Now. If I continue like that, my body's going to give up my liver or fucking pack up. Something that'll happen. I'll have a stroke. The blood pressure is through the roof. I knew it was already. You can't live eight years with blood pressure as high as mine. So something would have happened.

00:43:33:17 – 00:44:04:19
Something would have happened if I hadn't stopped. So, in terms of. While I haven't had a significant physical injury, the shit I was doing was worse than any broken leg. Yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah. And I worked out I'd be like, 56 grand up in eight years. 56,000 pounds up, right? Yeah, yeah. Or I'll carry on drinking when I've any money and be dead.

00:44:04:21 – 00:44:49:13
That is. Yeah. That's the. That's a hard choice to which you want to pay it. Yeah. And it's that way of framing things. It makes you think like. Yeah, it just I think, I think it's well like obviously it's, it's not a bad injury as you know, the framing of a broken arm or leg or whatever. But mental health wise and the way that you would be failing again if you were to carry on that same trajectory, like who knows where you would be like health wise, whether it would be debt or whether it would be a crow shave of a stroke or liver damage, whatever it might fucking be.

00:44:49:15 – 00:45:18:18
And that's one part of it. But then also you've got a knock on effect of being a hangover and relationships deteriorating because you've been aggy with your kids, with your messes, with, your colleagues that you work with, with, you know, your brother, your dad's whatever. And there's all those other things. And then again, the knock on effect of sleep, of eating the right food, of drinking the right thing.

00:45:18:18 – 00:45:47:13
And it's just this general snowball that like what you're doing at the moment, although it's I know it's hard, but the rewards at the end of it are so much greater. I mean, I, I can't believe this is how people feel. Most people fail all the time. Yeah, like that's mad. I don't like I'm like, fuck people. This is how people feel.

00:45:47:13 – 00:46:05:23
This is what it feels like to be normal. It's mad. It's. You don't realize if you you don't think you're drinking heavily. And like a lot of people, they hide the amount they're drinking. They're not honest of it. And,

00:46:06:00 – 00:46:31:18
And the the compound of several ailments are down. The leads to drinking are so massively debilitating. It's. I can't tell you. And you're not aware of it at the time? You're not aware of it. You're just in your head, just like it's all right. It's just a couple of beers or it's that lovely feeling. Like the hardest bit is that that first couple of drinks.

00:46:31:18 – 00:46:53:10
Like what you think that first couple of website? This feels good. I'm on the sofa. I'm watching a film, preparing dinner. And the world is great because you've just got that. You've got your your Downing's guide and your dove into guide, and and you feel massive. You feel fantastic. But. And that is the only positive I would say with it.

00:46:53:10 – 00:47:11:20
But the, the, the negatives that come with it really is a man. It's like you said, this is it's mad like lack of sleep. I'm sleeping through now. I'm not I'm not waking up for seven hours. I'm going to bed and waking up seven hours later of the way. Nice. I can I can walk the dog.

00:47:11:20 – 00:47:35:18
I'm swimming and we're doing more. Yeah. I've been swimming like, three times last week. Swimming free. You fucking little swimming pig. How's that going? I want to do it. Whereas when I drunk, I didn't want to go near a fucking swimming pool. No, I don't want to. I hate bait and poisoning rigs. I just code and I'm loathe allowed to like I'm not.

00:47:35:18 – 00:47:55:02
I appreciate that 25 days is nothing, right? It's. I know a lot of people I've noticed on TikTok because now I'm into it. But the sober coaches, they're everywhere. And some of them, give really good advice. But other than that, you've been sober for your mum's. I don't I, I get what you're doing is positive. Yeah. But yeah.

00:47:55:02 – 00:48:21:09
Yeah. But at this stage, I genuinely think I don't think I just I've said this before. I don't think I'm probably not going to drink again. I don't think I ever will. Really? Yeah, probably. You know what? Even if you do have a beer for everyone. Doesn't matter. Doesn't matter is about the mindset and how you open, which is you've kind of got the, bull by the horns and it's like, do you know what?

00:48:21:09 – 00:48:42:02
Let's fucking do this. But it isn't that I. I had the benefit of it. I would say a benefit I'm looking at as a positive of, of having that health scare, because if I didn't have that, I wouldn't have done it. I would have just carried on. There is always there's always something that like people, we all want to make changes, right?

00:48:42:04 – 00:49:02:09
And we keep on doing the things that we keep on doing until there is something that is either health scare you, miss is going to kick you out. You know you've lost all your money, whatever it fucking is. But as long as you get that little tazer into your back to be like, oh fuck, you know what the fuck, right?

00:49:02:09 – 00:49:24:22
Okay, I need to I need to, shape up here because it's going to carry on going down this trajectory that I do not want to go down with the loss making weight in that it was exactly the same. Right? I know if I carried on doing it, I could do it habitually and I would still be telling myself I'm alright.

00:49:24:24 – 00:49:48:04
But I think mentally I probably would have, lost the plot. Yeah. Like we really would have gone down a, rabbit hole. You know, maybe not. I've got my old self back, you know what I mean? Because you can go down that far to be, like, to fuck yourself up that bad. But again, like how a team mate.

00:49:48:04 – 00:50:05:19
Because it's, it's it's a, it's hard it's hard journey. And I remember when we were like in our 20s, I was just like, I'm never not doing this. I'm never not going out. I'm never not going to wrap my face for the pills. I'm never not going to be doing gear at 4 a.m. in the morning. This is this is the life I want to lead.

00:50:05:23 – 00:50:26:20
And tomorrow. Yeah, I mean, there are. So I was like, but I can't remember what I was doing. I was flicking through some flight eyes on. I was in the loft and I had some old photos that were friends that just, I haven't got time to put there. I haven't got round, put em up in this house or something like that.

00:50:26:22 – 00:50:51:13
It was a New Years when we were in kiss the Sky, and I just remember that night. Yeah, it was a messy night, but it was so, so much fun, man. So much fun. And I was like, I'd like to do that again. Yeah, that'd be nice. That's nice. But then, I'm also like, I don't want the five days of total write off, you know?

00:50:51:13 – 00:51:13:09
I mean, maybe it's best to have that nostalgia and that look back fondly on life back then for what it was, rather than try and recapture it now. Because, you know what I can't be doing? Live like five days out of my life. You know, that's not the hangover that bothers me or the other. It's just like, what?

00:51:13:11 – 00:51:32:06
Do I slip back into it if I do? That's right. Yeah. I in my head, like. So we lost May. We went to Amsterdam, we did three days in Amsterdam and it was packed up. And that's how much time the mushrooms and getting up to all sorts. Right.

00:51:32:08 – 00:51:58:23
And I was thinking, well, I can do that again next May. I'll just do a little Friday bin will go. Go over its in Amsterdam is separate from my life and even that's not healthy thinking for me. No, that isn't healthy. That's me guy. And you're not. You haven't given up. You're waiting for that time. Yeah. It's only momentarily, but I just had such a good time reading.

00:51:59:00 – 00:52:01:24
Go.

00:52:02:01 – 00:52:18:06
Mate, but what if, say, works? I've got big plans. I've got plans of things I want to do or what? I want to see things. And I want to spend time with my family. I want to see my kids have babies. So, I mean, I want to see all this shit and what I'm going to do. What am I to have a drink instead?

00:52:18:06 – 00:52:37:11
Thought that no chance. All right. Yeah. Like that. Right. We are going to be going on to dilemmas and something only you know. The dilemma is which the next step, something only you know, is called One Last Dance. But before we go into that, the topic for next week. I'm not even going to set a topic for next week.

00:52:37:13 – 00:53:00:10
I, going to go through a collection of new stories and we are going to go through that. I think, you know what I like, you know, what I enjoy most is just talking to you. Yeah. So like I'm fine with that as well. I, you know, I like that. I think we could amble through an hour talking about stuff that's interesting for sure.

00:53:00:12 – 00:53:27:04
For sure. Yeah yeah yeah, yeah. That's it. Yeah. We'll take that. And also remember if you see anything interesting, weird, something startling, anything that, you know, like a flame on the A then at us on social media at lads unknown. You know, we can start with fucking everywhere you go on your cryptocurrency career.

00:53:27:06 – 00:53:55:02
Let's start with that. Fuck. You know, I'd rather not. We can't afford my my foray into that. Bloody hell, I like that you still blame me in a way as well, but, I can't blame it. Yeah, that looking disgusting. It's my fault he's rich. His failure of a career is my fault. Apparently it's not. It's not your direct, your fault.

00:53:55:02 – 00:54:16:05
But it is your fault. That's what I said. Next week. We'll discuss that next week. And sorry, when I mentioned at the top of the show that I was ill all week, I've not posted anything on, Latin on social. So the algo gods will be fucking angry with us, right? So this week I'm coming back with a vengeance.

00:54:16:05 – 00:54:37:13
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00:54:37:13 – 00:54:48:11
So thank you very much. And we are now going to go on to dilemma.

00:54:48:13 – 00:55:15:07
Oh, just just tired. You got an issue for a tissue? You're a bit sad cause pain will give you a in your soul alone in your flat. Please talk to Ricky. Flat. Yeah. Let that stress off your chest. Well, friend, you deserve to play like you're safe here to get nice and warm between Ricky and then.

00:55:15:09 – 00:55:17:17

00:55:17:19 – 00:55:44:16
At the beginning of the uni year, I joined the society, and I fit in pretty well. I've always kind of fancied this one girl since September, but thought nothing of it until we shared a few weeks outside. I got chatting to her and the banter flowed. Last weekend at the pub, she offered to share a bag with me and kept giving me little signs like last day.

00:55:44:18 – 00:56:13:00
And apparently, after getting the all clear from the wingman, I made my knees. Fast forward to the pub after we ended up sleeping round mine, I put in bracket bait in the offside trap and a clinical finish. Now I feel like I really fancy her. What do you think I should do? Drop her DM or wait to potentially next week to see her in person?

00:56:13:02 – 00:56:28:11
And how should I go about making a no. I want more than a one night stand, share a bag for where my gear, I would assume so, yeah, and I think get a hold of each other when they're own. Yeah, that's what cares for that. Well no they did, they did all they did. Yeah yeah they did. Yeah.

00:56:28:11 – 00:56:44:14
Yeah I'm sorry I missed that bit. Sorry. Yeah. They, they did get a hold of each other after the pub. Yeah. Of course. My son. You were there. Yeah. You just keep feeding again.

00:56:44:16 – 00:57:07:19
I've met you already there, man. The gig is the gateway for sure. And then, you know, she's definitely still into you. Just drop a message going, fancy going out this weekend? That's all you need. You don't need to do any more than that. And you know it's on. Do you think that there is because there tends to be a conflicting thing with men and women.

00:57:07:23 – 00:57:25:20
But like, if you're too eager, do you know what I mean? If you were like, straight up in the DMs, like, we had sex last night, and then the next day you're like, oh, when we meet, should we go for a coffee? You go for lunch, mate. You fucking. You're all over me. Get off! No. Oh, no.

00:57:25:20 – 00:57:44:12
Oh, is it a one of those? They both know that they're into each other. They both know they're going to go to the pub next Saturday, and it's like you go in there and you play it cool and you know, oh, I, you're you're. I want a drink. Canada. But really, you both just want to be with each other, you know, one of them ones.

00:57:44:14 – 00:58:04:00
So do you think he should play it cool or do you think it's just like, now I thought this. Let's not waste any time. Let's just. Let's get the party started now. Let's get it back mid-week. You know, I, I don't, I don't think do that I don't, I don't I all you need to do is just go look because it's already done it.

00:58:04:02 – 00:58:23:08
She knows you're into her. You don't need to explain it. Why are you overthinking? It's just go and fucking, Just say to her we're going out next Saturday. Do you fancy. Come in. It's already on. It's going to happen now. I have this thing. Like when I was, I had this sort of period of leaving my Mrs..

00:58:23:10 – 00:58:43:00
I'd like I about eight months. Right. And I reckon. Yeah. And there was one at the time, one woman, we didn't even speak, but you could sense there was something going on. Oh yeah. Oh yeah. Yeah, yeah. And then we'd go out, we'd meet up on a Friday night with everybody else, and then it would always end up.

00:58:43:02 – 00:59:05:00
And we didn't even say a word for it was I like during the night you wouldn't talk to it, I don't know, we would be like maybe like lip like, you know, flirting a little bit touchy feely stuff, but, okay. But it would, it was. And then it would just happen, but we wouldn't speak at all. And then we just see each other.

00:59:05:00 – 00:59:29:19
Maybe another Friday, and then it'd be on again. It's a such a a. It's funny because you haven't, like, finalized anything. There's no fine details. You just knew. You just knew that it was. That's what was going to ask. It was on. Yeah. So funny. And humans are funny things anyway. Yeah. And then and then. But it was never like a there was any chance of a relationship.

00:59:29:21 – 00:59:50:02
It was just. Did you ever feel that there was like from her side that she wanted anything more, wanted to meet up outside. So not in that headspace that even if she would, I wouldn't have acknowledged it, wouldn't I? You know, where I was coming from? I'd been in it. Yeah, yeah. 18. This would have been about.

00:59:50:04 – 01:00:21:10
I would have been about 30, I'd imagine. 31 maybe. Yeah. Can't remember. But yeah, just like, say we had a long and elongated breaking up period which we classed as an open relationship but wasn't it was just, yeah, we just would live together, but we were living separate lives basically. So yeah, it was that and so if, if she did and maybe she did, I wasn't nowhere near that headspace.

01:00:21:12 – 01:00:45:10
Yeah. Yeah, it was only it was only multiple terrible one night stands. I just thought, this is shit. I don't want to be the central. Like the band out last one that this is. This isn't what we're doing. This is shit. I'm living a shit life right now. This is really good. This shit. Did you get to that?

01:00:45:12 – 01:01:05:09
Like, got to that stage. Like you were like, this is like, I. I don't want to be like. So it was fine when I was on the gear. Right? It was just, it was, it was off. And it's just it's just doing for me. It does like cocaine clouds your judgment in a big way. You do things and think things on cocaine that you don't think when you're not on it.

01:01:05:11 – 01:01:27:22
And so you would end up hooking up with someone. And then when you're coming down, you're like, what have I done? Why have I done this right? And during the week on a Wednesday, when you're working, the last thing you want to do is that the minute you do a line, you're like, you make a bad decision, not a bad decision, and it's not a bad decision if that's the life you want to lead.

01:01:27:22 – 01:01:47:14
But if you know it isn't the life you want to lead, and you keep doing it because of the drugs in that and the Hellenistic lifestyle, if you're if you're for me, I was getting to an age where that I'd done my part. You know, I'd done. Yeah, we'd been out a lot. We'd done 5 or 6 years in, in, in London.

01:01:47:16 – 01:02:10:14
I'd split up while I was in the process of breaking up with my girlfriend for a long time, and what I needed to do was that I needed to get it all out of my system. But I needed to. But subconsciously, I think I needed to build for the future. But instead, what I was doing was pissing up, piss my money up the wall with drugs and drink and shagging.

01:02:10:16 – 01:02:34:20
Yeah, and there's nothing but instant gratification in that. And that's only interesting for a certain amount of time. I mean, it does sound like solid, but I couldn't think. I couldn't imagine Ricky putting my dick in another woman. No, no, no, I wouldn't if if something happens, Ollie or she decided she didn't want to be with me anymore and I've got to go back on the market, I just.

01:02:34:23 – 01:02:55:11
It fills me with dread. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I think I've already drawn a lot. I'm fine just sitting at home on my own. That's fine. I'm know. You mean you wouldn't go for it? Nah nah nah nah nah nah. I'm I'm not not. I hope the companionship is important, right? It is. But I would probably get the dog.

01:02:55:11 – 01:03:18:09
I've always wanted a German shepherd and that would be my companion and. Yeah. Can't shake it, though. Okay. Yeah, I, I need, I think, like, companionship is the, the reason, the most important thing of being alive. Oh, for sure, it would be. It'd be nice if they took care of you when you're a bit poorly.

01:03:18:09 – 01:03:42:13
If you think that way, it. Yeah, exactly. Exactly. That is, if there's anything to take away from this podcast today when someone's ill fucking out from out, right. Take care of their brow, put their feet up, put on what film they want to, if they want a fucking KFC to get themselves better than let them do that. I didn't do that about it.

01:03:42:13 – 01:04:13:02
I'm just saying slap and tell you that, right? Okay, we are going to go on to something only you know. Now what's this one? Korea. This one is cold. One last dance. Tom thing. You know, you, a few years ago, I ran into an old acquaintance from school. We haven't seen each other in over ten years, but she was stunning as ever.

01:04:13:04 – 01:04:36:05
Why? Way out of my league. We reconnected through texts, and eventually we went on a few days. We immediately made a connection and many nights were spent chatting late into the night. As things progressed, I noticed that we were both ready to take the next step. This was the moment that when she felt she needed to confess something to me.

01:04:36:07 – 01:05:01:07
As I braced for the absolute worst, she went on to tell me that she doesn't actually work in marketing, but she actually works as a cam girl and OnlyFans model. I was floored, utterly speechless. Not in a bad way, but in the sense that this was an entirely foreign world to me. But deep down I realized that it didn't bother me at all.

01:05:01:09 – 01:05:17:22
She showed me that she doesn't show her face on camera, and only does solo work and only allows access to outside countries. So she's just the body. Our face is not in it. Yeah, I believe her.

01:05:17:24 – 01:05:25:07
I've got I do have this, but it's like this comes out.

01:05:25:09 – 01:05:51:05
As intimate partners. I remain positive and supported, as I learned the inner workings of online sex work. I even helped to edit a few of their videos. I was very close to filming one together. Aside from this little secret, we had a very normal, loving relationship. Sadly, we are no longer together and our relationship ended amicably.

01:05:51:07 – 01:06:13:18
A slight dilemma, however, even as years have passed, it takes every ounce of me to refrain from firing up NordVPN and revisiting some of the old videos. I will try to remain strong and appreciate my brief look into that world. To this day. I haven't told a single person about this, so I thank you for reading my story.

01:06:13:23 – 01:06:39:06
I appreciate the lot for this one. I'm not something only I know. That's great. I think in the interests of the kind of shaping where the podcast might go in the future, we should discuss this next week. What the, the situation he finds himself, what he found himself in. And what would you do if you would you go out with a cameo and and that sort of thing, I think.

01:06:39:06 – 01:06:49:18
Yeah. I don't have I wouldn't mind if it was just a cameo. And she's getting to know that if that's. And she did this.

01:06:49:20 – 01:07:24:00
She did this before I met her and I knew this. And then in a relationship, I think if I was comfortable at that stage, I'd always be comfortable. It's different if she's getting like big down, and that's a part of because I think that's, you know, I've got an issue with that. I wouldn't want that. But if she's just like talking, it's like if, if I, you know, like obviously my wife would never do this, but if she like, you know, like Sheila in the 90s would make a bit of extra money from doing sex lines.

01:07:24:00 – 01:07:49:14
Oh, and she sat on the sofa having a cigarette. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. What's the where's the harm? So this is my question to like, if your wife said I can get extra amount of money, how am I? I mean, when I'm talking an extra amount, it's like life changing amount. What are you talking, like 600 grand a year?

01:07:49:16 – 01:08:11:00
Probably not that much. Probably not that much. Give me a figure. I need a figure. Right? Right. I'm trying to think of it. So it's enough for you to be like. Do you know what I can? I can drop doing some of my media work for TSA and all the other. I can drop a couple of podcasts or I can, you know, the show.

01:08:11:02 – 01:08:38:10
So if, if the if the if we're earning sort of similar amount of money. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That you can do so so you could. Yeah. So you could, take your foot off the gas for a bit and give yourself some breathing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. And all it is, is a photograph. Yeah. Of totally naked legs open, straight on shot of the nun.

01:08:38:12 – 01:08:58:15
But you don't see anything else? Just that face as well. Not no face, no face. Just imagine if she said, imagine she's lying down and you're at her feet. She's got two feet up. All right. Okay. You don't have to say.

01:08:58:17 – 01:09:25:15
I. You deserve that. Oh. Yeah. And so it's you just seen. First of all, you'd see feet and then chins. Right? And then I get it, I get it, I get it right. No, no. No feet. Pictures. Maybe just feet. No one else. No one else would ever know. And it would be, to an external extent from the UK.

01:09:25:17 – 01:09:38:08
No. You know. All right. None that really. That's that's good. And I just want to get back to this gentleman that he.

01:09:38:09 – 01:10:00:18
He was like, you know, refraining, not trying so hard to not purchase some only old fans content, only fans content from his ex. Like if he was with his ex like he's seen. He's been there, done it, seen it, you know, all of that stuff. Why would you want to pay to see your your ex? You see that?

01:10:00:22 – 01:10:21:24
Would she got good nostalgia I think. Yeah maybe maybe I think yeah he probably just like curiosity. See what's going on. Yeah. Yeah. Curiosity I know. So mate of mine. No, I say a mate of mine, someone I know and I really like. And he might be listening to this and we, we kind of we've met each other once, but we talk on WhatsApp every couple of months.

01:10:21:24 – 01:10:42:03
We'll have a brief conversation, then it'll die for a couple of months. Right? Yeah. But he's in the entertainment industry and he's married to a porn, the British porn star. And they go, and they've got a kid together, and he's cool. It's I understand it's not. I mean, I've never discussed this with him originally. The reason why I met him was because we were,

01:10:42:05 – 01:11:01:00
Well, I plan to do a no holds barred with him about this subject, but it just didn't come together. We were is very busy. And the. Yeah, he's cool with it. He has a kid there, and it's all good shit, man. That's about security. And it's about how secure you are. Yeah, yeah, yeah, right. That is okay.

01:11:01:01 – 01:11:14:02
Yeah, yeah. That's been the end of the will. That is the end of Lads Anonymous this week. And we will all catch you on Monday.